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| Thursday, December 4th, 2008 | ||||
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caersidi |
6:03p | LJ Idol: Week 10 "You're So Vain I Bet You Think This Post is About You." I can assure you that it isn't about you. I just don't do cryptic well at all and I'd no doubt incur a massive fail if I tried. I'll be the first to admit that I'm not always able to express my feelings especially when I am hurt by someone's words or actions but I wouldn't use my journal to write in an ambiguous fashion to get a message across to that person. I might well filter a post to a few close friends if I needed to but I would say who I was writing about rather than veil their identity. When I was working I did often have things to say about my co-worker, Jane. She knew that she had the ability to stress me out and we often fought like cats and dogs though also had times of solidarity. Those entries about work were always friends locked and I kept the name and location of this journal to myself as once she knew I was keeping an on-line journal she was extremely curious to read it as she was sure I'd write about her. If I think about times when I've been over sensitive and thought someone was writing about me, the main arena has to be some of the role-playing games I used to take part in. In some games (not the Harry Potter ones) the level of back-biting, bitching and drama out of character often spun out of control. It was an aspect of the role-playing that somewhat blind sided me as it wasn't my thing at all. Still there were occasions when someone had a rant where no player or character names were mentioned specifically when a certain amount of free-floating anxiety and lack of confidence on my part would zap me and yes, I'd think it was about me despite my attempts not to be drawn into these kind of dramas. I am fairly sure that on some occasions when I'd convinced myself I was the subject of a post I really wasn't. I was too shy to confront the poster with a 'is this about me?' question but would investigate in round about ways like chatting to someone who was more clued-up on the interpersonal dynamics of the group. I don't think this was vanity as such; more likely the attitude of someone with a lifetime of experience as an outsider who can be more sensitive to signals from others that their 'otherness' has been spotted. Overall though I don't expect to be liked by everyone and keep the Gestalt Prayer in my mind when there are clashes of personality and attitudes. It sounds so 1960s now as it was coined then but I find it still holds true: I do my thing and you do your thing. I am not in this world to live up to your expectations, And you are not in this world to live up to mine. You are you, and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, it's beautiful. If not, it can't be helped. (Fritz Perls, 1969) This is my entry for Week 10 of ![[info]](http://www.insanejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} therealljidol. I'll post a link to the poll on Friday. | ||
| Wednesday, December 3rd, 2008 | ||||
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starlightforest |
5:09p | Stygian says: apparently your dad has managed to actually get a att [AT&T] "weenie" to talk to him pervy snape fancier says: lol Stygian says: apparently there are yet more problems.. pervy snape fancier says: oh? Stygian says: apparently they won't install if the outlets aren't grounded.. ( Read more... ) In summary: Y BROADBAND BE HATIN YO srsly. this is almost 2009. I know the US is way behind Europe and Japan and all but IT SHOULD NOT BE THIS HARD to get internet that isn't dial-up. This is Silicon Valley, gol-dangit. Al Gore invented the left half of the intertubes here. Or something. Now that I've got that entitled-sounding rant out of the way, I should be thankful that this is all the sort of thing I have to worry about, and not, you know, where my next meal is coming from or anything. | ||
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caersidi |
4:53p | That Wednesday feeling Misty-Maya is trying her best to stop me writing this entry. When did I become so popular with her? This morning my car was iced up which caused a brief flurry of concern as I had to be in town by 9:30. Still managed to sort it but must remember to get some de-icer and a proper thing to scape ice off windows on my next trip to the shops. The whereabouts of my big wool coat is also of concern though Tesco is having a short 25% sale on coats from tomorrow so if not located soon may have to invest some money in a new one. I seriously don't think I would have chucked it though but where is it? Watched Einstein and Eddington today and marvelled at Andy Serkis' range. He's been creeping me out in Little Dorrit as the evil Rigaud and yet he was so disarming as Einstein. Tess of the d'Urbervilles is also getting a re-run on BBC so am finally seeing that. There must be something wrong with me because I prefer Alex to Angel. Silly Tess. In other TV news Spooks has been amazing this series. Monday's episode was just superb and had me questioning so much about events in previous series based on revelations. Heaven knows what they'll do for the finale next Monday. Big Badda Boom I suspect. Tonight I plan to watch the first BBC Wallander film accompanied by one of the IKEA Swedish meatballs frozen meals I picked up the other week. Ice cream to follow. I might not get the freezer completely empty for the weekend but giving it my best shot. :) In other news it is cold. Oh yes I started this entry with that. I am seeking things to keep me warm! Current Mood:  cold | ||
| Tuesday, December 2nd, 2008 | ||||
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evie |
11:36p | Because I try to keep my promises You might recall that a fwe days ago I mentioned that my brother did not spend Thanksgiving with us, which story deserved a post of its own. So here I am delivering, as ( Cut to spare a flist already burdened by economic woes and the holidays, which are stressful even when they're great. I'm sorry for the tone, I'm feeling a bit brittle at the moment and sometimes blunt truth feels better than sugar-coating. ) Current Mood:  weepy | ||
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starlightforest |
12:06p |
*is horrified by setting a puppy on fire* That should be worth a lot more minus. Maybe we're talking "by accident". But why is buying someone pr0n a minus? Was it not to your taste, estaratshirai? :P | ||
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caersidi |
11:51a | Strange Night I'll leave off writing about Crys' funeral this morning. I found I was quite churned up last night, which may have accounted for a night just packed with dreams. I have written these up on muse_dreaming. A note for new folk to my friends list: I am happy to add anyone who is friended here to this journal on request. It was created so that I could tag my entries with dream symbols in order to keep track of themes and the like in my dream life. The last few nights I've found I've been sleeping more than usual. It may be because of the cold and an unwillingness to emerge from under the covers. Or it may be because I am processing a lot of stuff in my unconscious and need the down time. Nothing much planned for today. I might get busy on some housework later but I am not in the mood at present. Current Mood:  melancholy | ||
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evie |
2:00a | Random acts of poetry And here's that music shuffle meme, making the rounds. Put your music player on shuffle, and write down the first line of the first twenty songs. Post the poem that results. The first line of the twenty-first song is the title. Somewhere in the darkness Welcome to my secret lair on Skullcrusher Mountain Pathological monsters! cried the terrified mathemetician We are all traveling in the footsteps of those who came before There's a tall, thin man standing in the shadows She moved south as a child There's a small town in the mountains where the streets are white and still I like duty Well I thought I heard the captain say: And the slightest confrontation A voice like honey, no one else could fill his shoes. I would walk a thousand miles just to talk to you for a while. Ths sun is high today I've got the sun and the seasons We start the story when mom met dad I was eighteen - she was forty-five I had the carburetor cleaned and checked with her line blown out she's hummin' like a turbo jet Ask me why I came so late I thought we'd start the evening off with a glass of cold rose Only a moment ago we had nothing but time Palm trees and fun, fabulous sun - Hollywood's always like that Current Mood:  awake (unwillingly) | ||
| Monday, December 1st, 2008 | ||||
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starlightforest |
11:18p | The mind may go, but the heart endures long, and knows the best truths. | ||
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caersidi |
4:38p | Rainbow Bridge: a Tribute to Crys O'Regan The Mirror of Isis, a Fellowship of Isis publication, published the following: A Tribute to Crys O'Regan. | ||
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caersidi |
9:04a | What kind of shopper am I? This is very true.
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| Sunday, November 30th, 2008 | ||||
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blue_rose |
11:17p | My weekend and holiday accomplishments 1) Managing to not kill my mom, leave my parents' place early, and actually had a good time 2) Plenty of leftover vegan eggplant parm! 3) Painted my bathroom a nice, dark but vibrant blue. Ooh! 4) Quality time with Meep and Squee in front of the tv. So many cuddles. I love my sweet, sweet kitties. I took pics with my camera and need to upload them. 5) Made the awesomest vegan chili EVER!! Bestest, awesomest...OMGS 6) Found pockets of sane DW fandom online. GOODNESS. Unfortunately, I reset my body clock to its usual night owlness, so tomorrow is going to be one hell of a RUDE awakening. Current Mood:  okay | ||
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caersidi |
9:31a | Pretending to Sing... Rather ironic that Britney Spears mimed her performance on The X-Factor last night given the show is all about the contestants giving live performances. Also, a bit rich that she wore a mike, I'd guess to pretend she was doing it live. Wonder if Simon had anything to say about that but suspect it was such a big deal getting her on the show that he wouldn't. | ||
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caersidi |
8:46a | We'll always be together ..... Woke from a dream of Crys, mainly doing mundane stuff together in the dreamscape but with also a theme of me leaving an old work place that I often in dreams found myself still working for. Written up in muse_dreams as usual. Found that the refrain from Phil Oakley's Together in Electric Dreams was playing over and over in my head as I got out of bed. It's been a while since I heard it and it is a song from an 80s film that Crys and I both adored before we ever met. Of course, looking it up and listening to it on YouTube made me cry a little but more in recognition of how appropriate a song it was after waking from a dream with Crys. Trust Crys though to think about the computers in this way and also get me to wake up with a bouncy 80s song like this in my head as a reminder that we'll always be together because love never dies and for world-walkers we remain a breath away. Olivia encouraged me in her letter to 'think of the Sidhe' and of Midhir and Etain. Reminded me how we spoke of that myth when we were in Eire for our Isian Wedding. Makes aspects of 'Magic's Heirs' so much more poignant and ironic. I will return to it. I have to finish that story. I only knew you for a while I never saw your smile til it was time to go Time to go away (time to go away) Sometimes its hard to recognise Love comes as a surprise And its too late Its just too late to stay Too late to stay We'll always be together However far it seems (love never ends) We'll always be together Together in electric dreams Because the friendship that you gave Has taught me to be brave No matter where I go I'll never find a better prize (find a better prize) Though you're miles and miles away I see you every day I don't have to try I just close my eyes, I close my eyes We'll always be together However far it seems (love never ends) We'll always be together Together in electric dreams | ||
| Saturday, November 29th, 2008 | ||||
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evie |
8:48p | Memes Gone Wild! How did they know? ( My favorite color combination is green and purple. ) Also, I see this has made its way around the block a time or two, but damn it's too good not to share. If you haven't seen it yet. Or lately. The Alice's Restaurant Massacre. Heh. And finally, GIP. | ||
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evie |
11:53a | And the moral is: Know Thyself As battle-cries go, "I am a sexy shoeless god of war!" is really pretty good. I think I'll adopt it. Now that I'm prepared, I'm off to Costco. Wish me luck. Current Mood:  rushed | ||
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caersidi |
7:16a | Will 'overnight' success spoil JMS? Robin seems to be making up for his last few nights of sleeping downstairs with Buffy. Aside from sleeping next to me and my waking up with his paw wrapped around my hand, he's now taken up position on my mouse-pad. His over-night ministrations helped me sleep better and wake in a less distressed state than I was yesterday. He was also in my dream last night, I don't recall much detail apart from that it featured JMS (Joe Straczynski), who had done a film for TV about the life of Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis that he wanted me to watch for inspiration. She identified strongly with Isis and during her time at Doubleday commissioned "Isis and Osiris: Exploring the Goddess Myth" JMS probably made an appearance because of chatting about him with morgangallagher and his being the screenwriter for The Changeling, Clint Eastwood's latest film that has just opened to rave reviews here in the UK. When I went to see Quantum of Solace (which firmly establishes James Bond as Jason Bourne Version 2 and is rather loud and very thin on plot) with Katherine on Tuesday, we'd both been impressed by the trailer for The Changeling and then I was jumping up and down in my chair when I caught sight of the name J. Michael Straczynski on the credit screen.I read one 5-star review that said it was an 'impressive début for the 54-year old former journalist'. Obviously a critic who hadn't used Google as other reviewers cited his writing of Babylon 5 though didn't credit his role as its creator and executive producer. As Morgan rightly said he was now working with Hollywood royalty and it's a different league to television. I think it very likely that he'll get an Oscar nomination for Original Screenplay for this and could be a favourite to win. According to Morgan Joe did a great deal of research on the true life case behind The Changeling. I'm not reading too much about that as I don't want to be spoilt for the plot. I'm also excited to read that he's been commissioned to write the script for the remake of Forbidden Planet. Katherine's husband isn't keen on films and she seems pleased to have another friend who can go at times like late morning/afternoons as she works odd shifts. So we shall be making The Changeling our next film outing. Now Robin is giving me that look that suggests it is time to go downstairs to feed him and get some tea. | ||
| Friday, November 28th, 2008 | ||||
|
evie |
1:37p | Accomplished It's been years since the last time I personally cooked a Thanksgiving Day dinner. About 18 years, in fact. The last time was when I was omg-hugely!pregnant and apparently felt I had something to prove. (She can do it all! She pays the bills! She cooks and cleans! She makes holiday dinners! And she's brining new life into the world! Meet... Superwoman!) Not so much about that anymore, but I felt like making dinner, so I did. Found a free-range turkey, due to a combination of effects: waiting til the last minute to buy a turkey means that most of the 27-cents a pound guys are already sold out, and I also like to support farmers who raise animals humanely. (Thank you for your sacrifice, o turkey. And I'm glad you saw the sky before you died.) Cooked a couple of yams, some low-carb stuffing, potatoes (they don't make those low-carb. heh.). Forgot the broccoli until it was too late, but made gravy which will give me low-carb biscuits and gravy for dinner today. Mmm. And made a no-sugar pumpkin pie that turned out good despite being over-cooked and having twice as much splenda as it should have. (I forgot I was halving the recipe. Caught myself after already having added the sweetner. Oops.) This was all a bit overkill for dinner for me and the boy, but it was nice anyway. And I had the turkey stripped and packaged up in freezer bags before we had pie. Go me! Other accomplishments yesterday: got my Night Elf Warrior Skatthach to 72 in WoW. And 375 engineering! (You engineers know what an accomplishment that is.) I'm terribly frustrated at not being able to fly in Northrend yet, but I'm loving the exploration. (Note to self: make a Skatthach icon. She's jealous of your worlock) Other bits of WoW amusement: yay for Star Trek references! My inner fan-girl cackled gleefully over that one. (It's a Horde-only quest, though.) Also, someone needs to make me stop. I made another Death Knight. *weeps* Alt-a-holism is not pretty. Tomorrow will be Thanksgiving with the folks, but without my brother, which deserves its own separate post. Which I will do when I'm done throwing things and screaming with rage. Stupid technology that fails, and stupid, stupid social support systems that fail to support people who need help. I think it's time to Get Jesse Current Mood: content | ||
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caersidi |
5:45p | More LARPing Pictures of Crys and Friends I found the following from 1997 before Marvo thee Magnificent was created and Crys was Lord High Praetor Spartak Mortonos of the Spartaks of the Third Circle. The Spartaks existed before I met Crys and although I didn't have an active role at the events, I was Mortonos' wife with a back story. I can't recall my character's name but I dwelt in a tower and was a priestess of the Grey, the goddess figure whom the Spartaks served and in whose name they fought and 'rectified' various realities.  The Spartaks of the Third Circle, Summer 1997.  Crys (Lord High Praetor Spartak Mortonos) and Kerry (Spartak Shi'Nayne, daughter of Mortonos). This may also have been from a 1997 event.  From the Knights of Glandor period (2003?) Current Mood:  nostalgic | ||
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caersidi |
12:01p | LJ Idol - The Giving of Thanks During Thanksgiving Week there is no LJ Idol vote and we have a free topic, that anyone, not just current contestants, can write and link to the LJ Idol entry: The Giving of Thanks. I am thankful to Crys for giving me 17 and a half years of such happiness. We were saying on our 17th anniversary on the 31st October that we were still on our honeymoon and those who knew us will attest to the truth of that. We fitted together so perfectly. When we met I had pretty much given up on the idea of relationships and marriage and didn't feel worthy of love. Crys came into my life and turned all that on its head though I was at times I was haunted by doubts of my worthiness. Silly me having such wibbles. I am thankful that I didn't stay in that state for long and knew how blessed I was. I miss him so much, every hour of every day but that love lives in my heart and soul. I am thankful for my spiritual path that allows me a perspective beyond this plane of existence. I am thankful for my friends, near and far. I don't think I'd be here right now if it wasn't for them. I don't think I could have carried on or been so brave or strong. I think I would have remained broken. I am thankful to our cats for their daily antics and their love and for their demands. I'm feeling far too fragile today to write more or be philosophical, so shall close here. Current Mood:  sad | ||
| Thursday, November 27th, 2008 | ||||
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davensjournal |
11:26a | |||
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caersidi |
3:06p | Current score on today's household tasks Zanussi Fridge/Freezer 01 Vivienne 00 I cleared a ton of ice out but there is some ice at the very back of the ice tray section that is preventing my slotting it back in properly as because of this the door won't close properly which is what caused the problem in the first place. I just can't reach it as my arms are too short. I can't find the instruction book. I thought it was self-defrosting. :( I've also managed to give myself 2 burns. Anyway, will leave the ice tray section out for the time being and plan to eat as much of the frozen stuff as I can so that when Suse, Rich and Tobin are here next weekend it can be defrosted properly. Current Mood:  frustrated | ||
| Wednesday, November 26th, 2008 | ||||
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evie |
9:17p | This just in... W00t! Eagles of Death Metal's new album, Heart On, is available now. I likes it lots. Check 'em out. (Yes, I agree, the heaving buttocks are a bit distracting. But if you like guitar-driven rock, you will like their music.) | ||
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forwardthinking [ happier_bunny ] |
8:43p | ~ARTICLE PIMPAGE~ REMEMBERING AND CELEBRATING THE LIFE OF A HERO - HARVEY MILK LIVES If you read nothing else this weekend, please read this. | ||
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caersidi |
10:37p | Robin Demanded I Post This...  more animals I think Robin eavesdropped on my telephone conversation with morgangallagher as this evening he planted himself on my lap wrapping his paw around my wrist and just kept purring and looking at me with his big, adoring eyes. I am putty in his paws. Current Mood:  loved | ||
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evie |
2:19p | oooShiny! Hey guys! Check out how many alternative-fuel vehicles are showing at the LA Auto Show! I like the small electrics. :-) | ||
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